Back on my desk after taking a 5hours break from work which I had been stuck to since the start of the week. Before I forget, I thought I better pen down my thoughts I had during my train ride home after spending 3hours in an audit lecture which was followed by only 4hours of sleep.
Like any other birthdays I had, a typical celebration was planned with lotsa food, booze and fun. But it was "payback time". Emotions came all over me and I was really upset at everything else except me. I don't think I am at (entire) fault and it's my birthday so I should be priviledged to be excused - GenY mindset.
When I tweeted about my supposedly bad birthday weekend, a friend commented and I took the situation into a new light. She told me how lucky I was to have had celebrated my previous birthdays and missing one isn't that of a great deal!
I have just started the book titled Rich Dad, Poor Dad by Robert Kiyosaki(would like to specially thank a friend who lent the book to me). In the first 2 chapters, his rich dad told him to "think using your emotions, not with your emotions." It got me confused about the usage of the word "use" and "with" until last night, when my emotions began to settle down. I told myself cool down, take a step back and look at the whole situation. And YES! It was my fault. Who else's could it be?
What's so meaningful celebrating a quarter of a century old like how i did when I was 16, 18 and 21? Eat, laugh, get tipsy and the following days after goes on as usual.
But today, on the 14th January 2012, I'd like to thank my procrastination skills(nothing to be proud of) which led me to this chunk I have to clear. And my mentor(she hates to be called boss) in mainly work but also teaches and talks to me about life, that woke me up this day. I feel reborn. I gained new meaning and realisation to my life and I want to leave the old me who mixes work and play behind.
During lecture this afternoon we learnt about
1. substance - what you actually are
2. appearance - what you are seen to look like
and
3. mind - what you think
And it reminded me about what my mentor told me about the congruent theory she uses to evaluate people - the way they speak, do and think.
People always say, "So long your conscience is clear, it's okay." BUT can you measure you own conscience? I think it is like how internal goodwill has no value on the financial statements!
In life you do not only need to be responsible to yourself, from the moment you were borned, you already owe your life to your parents! You did not came to this world by yourself! You were also delivered successfully partly to the doctor who did a good job, the nurses who assisted, the driver who sent your mommy to the hospital and the list goes on even to the mosquito that chose not to sting your mom while she had you.
....ok I should stop crapping so much but you get the idea don't you?
Bottom line is, do not take things for granted no matter how big or small a thing, I'm not saying you should be a saint lah! Just learn to appreciate life and in due time life will appreaciate you. A tree does not bear fruit until it's time.
It always hurt to have something when before you had all along to be taken away, but if it's due to the circumstances which you could have taken a better control of and made a better decision for, you can only learn from it and grow up. And this, is definitely making me grow.
*ding*ding*leveling up*ding*ding*
I should get back to work now I wanna enjoy my CNY next week!
Ciao!
the michelle with panda eyes
Saturday, January 14, 2012
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Mad World
As a child, everything new was just fun, but sad to say as we grow older, the world around us seems to change into something scary, and with the power of the Internet there is abundance of information you can get whether is it's useful to you or not.
I joined dog forums since I was 14. Every thread read or post started was to gain more more knowledge about the upkeep of my dogs and to get some cheap buys from consolidated orders or second hand items.
Things started to get a lil scary when I did some good. Like fostering and rescuing dogs. It was an episode of home visits, vet visits, then bullets from forum and the last straw was verbal threats and to the police station.
Recently, a lie made to prevent a saga from happening was questioned. Told the whole truth and sorta drag another forumer into the 'mess' and now I'm being blamed, for telling the truth.
So is it better to tell the truth or not? I guess it's best not to even lie. None of accidental discovery or of harboured bad reputation/charater or blaming would result.
Another incident, because someone introdced me to this girl who WANTED DESPERATELY to have an offspring from her old aged male Pudding hamster, I agreed to let Humpty be bred to him IF she likes him. Another reason was that I wanted another hamster to accompany Humpty in the tank after Dumpty passed on.
We made an agreement to keep mum about this as well. You know, breeding and forums don't go hand in hand unless you have a breed of hamster with quality genes which can be traced. But this someone went to get advice about ME from another forumer who doesn't know ME!
So the "deal" was called off because I was labelled "what kind of person would put 2 hamsters together in a tank when advise not to?" I did not even had a single thought about selling off any of the pups!
I didn't felt angry or upset or even the least disappointed when the breeding did not happened. It did not matter to me. And why I'm kicking up such a fuss now it's because of the people hiding behind search engines and forums and speaking bad about other people when they do not even know the person.
C'mon lah, I was keeping both females and I wanted to see them cuddling and living cutely together. Crime? Unetical?
Give me quality hamsters from top bloodline anytime and I can tell you I WILL NOT BREED. I don't need to sell hamsters for a living and neither do I want to take my hamster hobby that far. For a lil fame and money, one could do better in the dog's world.
My pets are all females, I could had easily bred the dogs, or the rabbit as well, and sell the kids back to the petshop where I got her. But did I? Do I need to?
No doubt their expenditure is quite a large amount every month, but earning money via giving tuition and taking up ad hoc jobs is sufficient, especially when Chris contributes a fairly large amount.
I want specific pets because they appeal to me. Not because I can make bucks out of them.
I want them so as to keep me occupied and happy, to make me smile the first thing in the morning and at the end of an angry or tiring day. But I got judged and condemned by every action and statement made?
The world gets crazier as we grow and gets exposed to more things. Is that why there isn't a REAL person left on earth anymore?
Past week I was trying my luck to find a nice Syrian hamster, hoping for a quality one too as I did not want to get one from the local petstore which breeds rat faced Syrians. Neither do I want to get one from one of the "Unetical hamster breeders" they often talk about in the forum. I searched hard. Asked some labelled ethical breeders but there was no available Syrians.
I gave up hope. With the thought that some of these high and almighty ethical breeders, who will not even look me in the eye when we talked, would spare one of their super precious hamster to me. I then thought to myself where will people like me get good breeds of hamsters if such ethical breeders are reluctant to let go of theirs?
It's a cycle, a chain reaction, a demand and supply theory.
Since there's no way for me to adopt one that I liked, or to buy one from such ethical breeders with quality genes. There's only home breeder to go, and that's where I got Popcorn from earlier this evening.
How funny when people aims to create the most beautiful dog/cat/hamster and wants to deter people from getting from unethical breeders/petshops when they're so reluctant to sell their offspring to people who simply wants a PET. And when they do, they'll screen the person upside down, through and through as if it's an Xray going through to reveal your whole life.
Now I finally understand why some people I know sticks to buying pets instead of all the hassle of adopting and going through ethical breeders.
I just want a pet, FULLSTOP.
I joined dog forums since I was 14. Every thread read or post started was to gain more more knowledge about the upkeep of my dogs and to get some cheap buys from consolidated orders or second hand items.
Things started to get a lil scary when I did some good. Like fostering and rescuing dogs. It was an episode of home visits, vet visits, then bullets from forum and the last straw was verbal threats and to the police station.
Recently, a lie made to prevent a saga from happening was questioned. Told the whole truth and sorta drag another forumer into the 'mess' and now I'm being blamed, for telling the truth.
So is it better to tell the truth or not? I guess it's best not to even lie. None of accidental discovery or of harboured bad reputation/charater or blaming would result.
Another incident, because someone introdced me to this girl who WANTED DESPERATELY to have an offspring from her old aged male Pudding hamster, I agreed to let Humpty be bred to him IF she likes him. Another reason was that I wanted another hamster to accompany Humpty in the tank after Dumpty passed on.
We made an agreement to keep mum about this as well. You know, breeding and forums don't go hand in hand unless you have a breed of hamster with quality genes which can be traced. But this someone went to get advice about ME from another forumer who doesn't know ME!
So the "deal" was called off because I was labelled "what kind of person would put 2 hamsters together in a tank when advise not to?" I did not even had a single thought about selling off any of the pups!
I didn't felt angry or upset or even the least disappointed when the breeding did not happened. It did not matter to me. And why I'm kicking up such a fuss now it's because of the people hiding behind search engines and forums and speaking bad about other people when they do not even know the person.
C'mon lah, I was keeping both females and I wanted to see them cuddling and living cutely together. Crime? Unetical?
Give me quality hamsters from top bloodline anytime and I can tell you I WILL NOT BREED. I don't need to sell hamsters for a living and neither do I want to take my hamster hobby that far. For a lil fame and money, one could do better in the dog's world.
My pets are all females, I could had easily bred the dogs, or the rabbit as well, and sell the kids back to the petshop where I got her. But did I? Do I need to?
No doubt their expenditure is quite a large amount every month, but earning money via giving tuition and taking up ad hoc jobs is sufficient, especially when Chris contributes a fairly large amount.
I want specific pets because they appeal to me. Not because I can make bucks out of them.
I want them so as to keep me occupied and happy, to make me smile the first thing in the morning and at the end of an angry or tiring day. But I got judged and condemned by every action and statement made?
The world gets crazier as we grow and gets exposed to more things. Is that why there isn't a REAL person left on earth anymore?
Past week I was trying my luck to find a nice Syrian hamster, hoping for a quality one too as I did not want to get one from the local petstore which breeds rat faced Syrians. Neither do I want to get one from one of the "Unetical hamster breeders" they often talk about in the forum. I searched hard. Asked some labelled ethical breeders but there was no available Syrians.
I gave up hope. With the thought that some of these high and almighty ethical breeders, who will not even look me in the eye when we talked, would spare one of their super precious hamster to me. I then thought to myself where will people like me get good breeds of hamsters if such ethical breeders are reluctant to let go of theirs?
It's a cycle, a chain reaction, a demand and supply theory.
Since there's no way for me to adopt one that I liked, or to buy one from such ethical breeders with quality genes. There's only home breeder to go, and that's where I got Popcorn from earlier this evening.
How funny when people aims to create the most beautiful dog/cat/hamster and wants to deter people from getting from unethical breeders/petshops when they're so reluctant to sell their offspring to people who simply wants a PET. And when they do, they'll screen the person upside down, through and through as if it's an Xray going through to reveal your whole life.
Now I finally understand why some people I know sticks to buying pets instead of all the hassle of adopting and going through ethical breeders.
I just want a pet, FULLSTOP.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Nachos the Roborovski
I'm back here with another addition!
Chris got me a white face Roborovski!! She is Darn cute!!
And really TINY! Prolly like 2 thumb's size! Humpty came to me bigger, about 3/4 palm size
I was trying to make her familarise with my scent earlier this evening and after an hour I guess she couldnt take it anymore and she decided to nip my finger while she was on my palm which she climbed on, on her own accord. =.="
We saw her on Monday evening when we were at Serangoon North to buy toilet sand for Humpty. I couldnt take my mind off her the whole night and so the next day, we went down to get her, and out of the 3 Robos in the tank, she was the only that I could carry.
This picture was taken this afternoon! Her facial expression like calling out for help while being trapped between my fingers!
I actually wanted a normal, easy to cean/wash cage. BUT! This boy here, loved the spaceship feel of the Habitrail Ovo Suite so much he paid almost double of what he could had paid for what I wanted.
Picture courtesy of Google
See how happy is he fixing it up. with the silly girl behind him kaypo-ing.
BUT! after 1 night in the OVO, realised Nachos wasn't tall enough to reach the bottle, and her legs weren't wide enough to climb the tunnel!
Shared it with a forumer, and she kindly offered me a Hampot for Nachos. Luckily I had spare food bowl, wheel and bottle that was bought for Dumpty the previous time. It was perfect for her!
Now the Ovo is being left in the storeroom. So to utilise it, we've decided to adopt a Syrian hamster soon! And she shall be named Popcorn!
And I hereby promise that Popcorn shall be the last pet I'm acquiring for the period!
2 dogs, 1 rabbit, 3 hamsters = full house!
Cya soon~
Chris got me a white face Roborovski!! She is Darn cute!!
And really TINY! Prolly like 2 thumb's size! Humpty came to me bigger, about 3/4 palm size
I was trying to make her familarise with my scent earlier this evening and after an hour I guess she couldnt take it anymore and she decided to nip my finger while she was on my palm which she climbed on, on her own accord. =.="
We saw her on Monday evening when we were at Serangoon North to buy toilet sand for Humpty. I couldnt take my mind off her the whole night and so the next day, we went down to get her, and out of the 3 Robos in the tank, she was the only that I could carry.
This picture was taken this afternoon! Her facial expression like calling out for help while being trapped between my fingers!
I actually wanted a normal, easy to cean/wash cage. BUT! This boy here, loved the spaceship feel of the Habitrail Ovo Suite so much he paid almost double of what he could had paid for what I wanted.
Picture courtesy of Google
See how happy is he fixing it up. with the silly girl behind him kaypo-ing.
BUT! after 1 night in the OVO, realised Nachos wasn't tall enough to reach the bottle, and her legs weren't wide enough to climb the tunnel!
Shared it with a forumer, and she kindly offered me a Hampot for Nachos. Luckily I had spare food bowl, wheel and bottle that was bought for Dumpty the previous time. It was perfect for her!
Now the Ovo is being left in the storeroom. So to utilise it, we've decided to adopt a Syrian hamster soon! And she shall be named Popcorn!
And I hereby promise that Popcorn shall be the last pet I'm acquiring for the period!
2 dogs, 1 rabbit, 3 hamsters = full house!
Cya soon~
Saturday, April 17, 2010
I'm back, with an addition
Been so busy the last week with a new addition, and the previous weeks with school and tuition assignment.
I forced myself to take on another assignment due to the lack of spending powers! It's taking a toll on my studies. I hope things will smoothen out once the kids finishes their exams in early May.
About the new addition, it's Rocher the Black Labrador. She's somehow abandoned by her family and my heart got softened when I saw her. So I took her home to foster but who knows she seems to have a tiny place in my heart already.
She's really a sweetie who LOVES pats and food and water. Basically she'll be a contended dog with pats, food, water and sleep! And you should see the way she MANJA to us, HUGE dog but act like a baby. Don't know whether to cry or laugh. HAHA!
We're still comtemplating as to whether to keep her or not. The daily walks of 4-5 times per day, daily mopping of 3-4 times per day, daily washing of balcony is gonna drain me outta my juice sooner or later. I hope she gets totally housebroken in 2months time as I'm looking to work full time after June's exams.
Also I hope her yeast infection on her body and ears gets cleared away fast. Body no long stink as much, but still has minimum white specks of skin falling and ears are still a lil "off" smell and a lil timid. Scared of dogs bigger than her, scared of man walking with loud footsteps and also scared of toddlers who approaches. LOL. Other than this, she's a great dog who'll walk nicely on my right and sit's whenever I stop walking/waits for the lift.
'Nuff of talks, here are some pictures. More on facebook.
Shall update soon! Outing with the dogs and cousin tmr!
nitey
michelle
I forced myself to take on another assignment due to the lack of spending powers! It's taking a toll on my studies. I hope things will smoothen out once the kids finishes their exams in early May.
About the new addition, it's Rocher the Black Labrador. She's somehow abandoned by her family and my heart got softened when I saw her. So I took her home to foster but who knows she seems to have a tiny place in my heart already.
She's really a sweetie who LOVES pats and food and water. Basically she'll be a contended dog with pats, food, water and sleep! And you should see the way she MANJA to us, HUGE dog but act like a baby. Don't know whether to cry or laugh. HAHA!
We're still comtemplating as to whether to keep her or not. The daily walks of 4-5 times per day, daily mopping of 3-4 times per day, daily washing of balcony is gonna drain me outta my juice sooner or later. I hope she gets totally housebroken in 2months time as I'm looking to work full time after June's exams.
Also I hope her yeast infection on her body and ears gets cleared away fast. Body no long stink as much, but still has minimum white specks of skin falling and ears are still a lil "off" smell and a lil timid. Scared of dogs bigger than her, scared of man walking with loud footsteps and also scared of toddlers who approaches. LOL. Other than this, she's a great dog who'll walk nicely on my right and sit's whenever I stop walking/waits for the lift.
'Nuff of talks, here are some pictures. More on facebook.
Shall update soon! Outing with the dogs and cousin tmr!
nitey
michelle
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
About CNY
Whoo! It was a busy 4 days!
The night before Reunion Dinner, we went to River Ang Pao. Before that, we had NYNY for dinner.
Nothing much, snapped some pictures and off we went to Marina Square then back home.
Reunion Dinner as usual. Lotsa food and gambling till 5am! Hehehe, I lost a lil on both blackjack and mahjong.
My poor baby waited for us till we got home at about 6am! She could barely hold her eyelid when she finally laid in her bed.
After 3hours of sleep, we woke up and prepared to head to Chris' godparent's place, to collect the 'YuSheng' as well as to 'Pai Nian'.
Take 1 - OpS!
Take 2 - Better
Came back home to place the 'YuSheng' into the refridgerator before rushing out again. Naughty girl trying to make us play with her.
Can't bear to let us go out again
Reunion Dinner as usual. Lotsa food and gambling till 5am! Hehehe, I lost a lil on both blackjack and mahjong.
My poor baby waited for us till we got home at about 6am! She could barely hold her eyelid when she finally laid in her bed.
After 3hours of sleep, we woke up and prepared to head to Chris' godparent's place, to collect the 'YuSheng' as well as to 'Pai Nian'.
Take 1 - OpS!
Take 2 - Better
Came back home to place the 'YuSheng' into the refridgerator before rushing out again. Naughty girl trying to make us play with her.
Can't bear to let us go out again
Let me introduce you my very cute nephew. Issac the Tiger!
As it's also Vday, after visiting my Uncle's place, the 4 of us headed down to town to catch Percy Jackson & the Lightning Thief, 'Kiap' a soft toy and had dinner @ Xin Wang HK Cafe.
Got home at about 1am and was dead tired.
On the second day of CNY, woke up around noon and head off from Sengkang to Bukit Batok to pay my God-family a visit. They were my doting babysitters since young till about 5years old.
Evening was spent at my Aunt's place. We Wii-ed and blackjack-ed and mahjong-ed. I was winning on mahjong during the first half, until my grandma kept winning 5 consecutive rounds just before the end of the game! I told myselft I had to at least get back my $$ and so I aim-ed for a 'Yi Se' (full colour) and I did it! With an extra flower! Muahahahaha! Got back mroe than what I asked for.
Thrid day of CNY, went over to Chris' parent's place for 'Lou Hei' and off we went to town! And look what I've got!
So busy that my laundry basket was over flowing, dust and fur and hair all over the floor. Glad I didn't agreed to start tuition today else I won't be able to do anything till thursday.
Huat ah!
michelle
Friday, February 12, 2010
Shoes and stuffs
Who doesnt love shoes?
Hehe, lazing around in the afternoon with nothing to do, decided to take out my untouched camera and snap away. So, let me show you the 3 pairs of shoes we've gotten.
Hehe, lazing around in the afternoon with nothing to do, decided to take out my untouched camera and snap away. So, let me show you the 3 pairs of shoes we've gotten.
Yeap, you might have noticed I'm definitely not a heels lover. :P
Went to Far East the day before and I've gotten some really cheap accessories! So happy neh!
Here's little Humpty on her time out in her running ball! I was cleaning her tank and she was Kaypo-ing around until she found a corner to sleep. Haha
She's getting cuter and cuter lah! But still very shy, only come out to run the wheel in the middle of the night when no one can see her. LOL
Heart itching for another one, but the house got no more space. :(
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